Anyway, the reason for not being able to update as soon as I said so is actually the exact same reason I have been dwelling on every time I am late on updating. There's so much issues to address, so much stories to tell! So I shall begin:
1) School: Guess what? I got accepted into MDIS. I was rejected into all other Poly, sadly. But who gives a hoot anyway? I kinda dislike going to a poly. I guess it has always been me. I don't like going to school filled with a hell lot of people. I'm a claustrophobic person, so no poly for me. So, MDIS has been fun. It was hard at first and it is still hard for me now, but it is a lot easier since. All tutorials and assignments are done finally, HURRAH! However, in 2 weeks time, exams will commence. This calls for a study date yipee!
2) Life: Well, it has been a mundane and dull life for me ever since I graduated from Hillgrove. No more dramas, no more laughter. Both of my ex lovers has their own partners which actually make me feel like a loser. But no, I'm enjoying it. I'm not socially active and I definitely do not mingle with people anymore. Hence, the reason why my life is a total bore. I guess I am not the same Farah I use to be. I'm not sociable anymore, I do not open up to people so easily like how I use to, I don't laugh a lot now. The best part is, my friends view me as a happy-go-lucky girl. As cliche as it may sound, I may not be. I hide my pain so professionally (lol at this, idk any words anyway) that people may think I'm problem-free.
How naive. I think my body recognizes the pain and the hurt I feel every single day without fail that it decides to build a very strong defense mechanism. I look at my past and I am proud. No regrets whatsoever. I look at my friends, I am glad I knew them. I look at my ex lovers, I am happy that I inflicted the pain on them. I know I know it sounds mean but I always have a reason behind my actions. It is not as if I wanted to hurt them intentionally, no. I wanted them to be prepared for what they have to face in the future because I know, what we had, was nothing. It was only a high school crush. Nothing more.
But I am glad :-) Content. That is all for my update.
See ya soon xx